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this pain that i can not control that takes over my soul sapping my strength making me lose my control i'm so sick of all of this the worry and the pain to sit here well and whole while your losing your road i'm so sick of hearing the words that make my sould bleed i'm so sick of all of this this pain that i can not control oh god!, why again not another one why can't it be my why shouldn't it be me i'm not so good i'm not so right so why god, why the hell can't it be me i'm far more deserving i don't deserve the good days i don't deserve the love why can't it be me instead of them i'm so sick of losing control of lo

So she sit's there, the cold hard concrete beneath her butt. his arm warm and comforting against her. what would happean tonight, what was going to be. she lifted her head up and gazed at the moon. the moon seemed to know everything, always constant.     She wished she was like that, worthy enough to be loved. she knew what she wanted, what she had always imagined. but she still had no idea. did he or didn't he. would he or wouldn't he. what was going to happean?   Would she leave a changed person, or would she still me the same person. she sighed and snuggled closer. his words a comfort, causing her to smile. all about the important and

so i sit here on my bed wondering when i will know the truth behind your gaze the truth behind your words so i sit here wondering when i will make the fatal mistake tell me not worry tell me not to cry but i sit here wondering when i will die

Gently, Softly Crazily,Merrily I see your face in my dreams i feel your arms all to briefly around me i feel your warmth gently cradle me i feel your words heal my soul trusting, giving so excited i wonder if this dream of mine will ever come true- the story of you and me

alone lost tiny little child in the cold rain afraid terrified what do i do i feel empty without your arms your gentle warmth you kind words yet i do not even know you yet who are you? my unknown love so i will wait in eager anticipation for your face to finally come to me